The Light of the Moon

I wrote this little passage last year and and have been reminded of it time and time again. Please excuse any grammatical errors or choppiness. I just wanted to share it with you all. 

12/9/19

I’m honestly not sure what to call this. Maybe an epiphany. . . Or a realization brought on by God. Either way, I just realized something that I was never able to really connect in my brain before. I understand the correlation between light/dark to good/evil. 

I had a really hard day today. I can only say that it truly felt like I was being attacked. I know I was. I also was pretty much defeated until about 7:30pm. So from the start of my day to 7:30 I faced a difficult battle. I simply didn’t want to pray. Cough cough. Umm, who tries to keep us from praying? Satan. 

So, at about 7:30, (it was already dark outside) I opened up my curtains, and closed and locked my door. I bent down and finally started praying. I was confused. I hadn’t quite figured out that the devil had been attacking me yet, but I figured it was something like that. Well, I basically asked God why it felt like He wasn’t present. Where were His little kisses and hugs that I had received multiple times in the past? So, before I had even started praying, I noticed the moon was extremely bright tonight. I mean, even with the yard lamp on, there was a huge splotch of clear white light on the floor of my bedroom. By the time I finished praying, I definitely felt better. Not because I had some fulfilling prayer or anything, but simply because I had prayed. I didn’t feel like God gave me any little or big kisses, or had even really met me in that moment. Of course He was there, I simply wasn’t ‘feeling’ Him. So fast forward a couple of hours. I just listened to an amazing sermon by Tad Trapp, the pastor of my older brother’s church. And then, after the sermon was over, I turned off my light, opened the curtains again, and listened to some beautiful music and worshiped God. I moved towards the window to get a better view of the world, when I noticed the moon again. I started praying. I said, “God, one day I want to be like the moon. No, I want to be like the sun. Actually, no, I want to be like the moon, because You are like the sun, and the moon reflects Your Light.”

Then it hit me. I noticed all the other stars in the dark sky and realized that good vs. evil and dark vs. light are almost perfect analogies of each other. I was made to reflect Christ’s Light, just like the moon. It’s bright and at times will actually shower the whole earth in the light it’s reflecting, making the darkness disappear. The sins of the world are the darkness. But occasionally there are stars and planets and moons that reflect the light of the sun. Just like Christians should and (some) do reflect the Light of the Son, lighting up the darkness of the world. There’s another type of light though. The artificial light. The light that in this example came from was the yard lamp. The artificial light sometimes, almost always, catches the unsuspecting eye of bugs. They get confused as to what the real light is and they kill themselves in their attempts to reach the fake light. So how do you recognize the True light compared to the fake light? You have to know the differences. Read the Bible. Study the Bible. Memorize the Bible. 

Another thing I noticed for the first time was how darkness actually cannot beat light. I mean, think about it. Light always wins. Sure, it takes more energy to make light than darkness, because darkness is the natural state of the world, just like in life. But when you do shine the light, the darkness hides. Light always wins. You turn on a flashlight and everything the light touches makes the darkness hide. You can’t turn on the darkness. When the light goes out, the darkness comes in, but every time you turn on the light, the darkness cannot stand. That blows my mind. 

All that to say, God gave me a kiss tonight. It wasn’t the same as the last ones, but it was so much better.